The year that passed me by...

So, now that we are sitting in our razais, etc and another year of our lives comes to an end, I cannot help but ponder about the year that has gone by. Yes, it always seems like it passed away in a flash. Seems like you can imagine yourself being in a place which you had been in, last year, if you know what I’m saying? Like, that’s totally the case with me. And, as we come to the horizon of the new year, we know that life will be changing completely for us. Most of my peers will be entering a new phase of life as they start working and earning for themselves. Hence, I look forward to an exciting and fast paced year ahead and best wishes to everyone who’s going to enter this new phase alongside me.

So, for me, hmm, the year was a total roller coaster ride. For all science junkies out there, like a “cos” curve. :P. Hey, very co-incidental. Ain’t chussu dude! A great beginning, lots of new friendships and this year round, lost a lot of people too whom I had thought were my friends. Also, the worst part was the six months i spent in Bhopal. Please, it deserves a special mention! It can easily be the filthiest city ever, with all the worst people ever collected and thrown into one single garbage can. The people at Eicher were the worst that I’ve ever seen. But, you get up and learn from these experiences. I learnt foremost how to survive in the worst of conditions. Other than that, I obviously learnt that how work is done (getting it done would be the right phrase) in the Industry atmosphere and at the very worst of that.

On a more personal level, this year was so very much about losses and gains. There were new relationships forged during the course of this year. I lost a lot of close people. Atleast people whom I thought were close to me. I couldn’t have even guessed at the start of this year that I would be losing so many people. It would’ve been so hard to imagine that I would’ve laughed at the mere thought of it. There were people who had been “best friends” for 9 whole years, and yet, they were the ones to break trust, bitch about me right behind my back and make me look like a bloody a*#($&^e.  He should’ve always known what i was. What I thought. Everything. And, yet he went ahead and ruined another friendship for me. And, that loss is what affects me a lot! Like, there were a lot of ups and downs, but, never have there been so deep lows. And, what a shock it was all for me. Somebody I seemed to trust so much with all of a sudden turned its back on me and accused me of something where I was clearly not at fault!  All the people said let it be. That person always behaves like this but never means it, by heart. But, it was like limits. How many times should I forgive?! And, why the hell should I be the one who has to bend according to the situations?! I swore to myself that I would never ever forgive that person ever again. That is what was deserved! It was like. Sheer disappointment. So much so for all the thoughts of a good friendship to last a lifetime. :|
Those things, as they say, are just too good to come true, don’t they? And, thus, a good friendship collapsed. With it collapsing, there were so many other aftershocks. So many outbursts. But, there was this one word. Ego! It could’ve healed all those wounds but it just weakened everything even further! Driven to the point of no return. It led to so many friendships getting broken! So much shit. And because of what? Some stranger person whom we were both against at that time, coming there and bitching about me? Is that it? Is that how much I was trusted?! Feels so much like I was the only one thinking that I had a good friend and not vice versa. And, if you think about it, won’t you say that it is mean. Hated that the most. And, as days rolled by, I became okay with the fact that there was a person whose face disgusted me and whom I would never talk to! No apologies came either. Not to my surprise!

College life! Oh God, how much had I missed my college while away for 6 months! Made me realize the importance of College/Patiala and taught me to not crib about that town! It was refreshing to come back to the old routine life! And, with the final year of college came the fresh tension of campus placements. And, my god, how seriously depressing can it get?! You come about to regret so many things that you said/didn’t say/ wrote. And the whole thing keeps running in your mind over & over & over again! Very depressing! And, until you get one, you just have to learn to live with that heavy load on your shoulders and you are waiting for it to just subside and go away. I failed at many points. The main point of obstacle for me proved to be Group Discussions. Failed three times! And, then, after 7 times, that I cleared the written, I finally got a job. A very good and satisfying job (I hope)! Just the type of job that I had hoped for! And, as they all used to say, with due patience you do get something that you had hoped for and you deserved.

A great failure in the year that passed was the Metallica fiasco. Yes, many of you might be laughing at us, but, then you wouldn’t have been there, that’s why you’re laughing. It was, like, heartbreaking. I personally had placed a lot of hopes on it as it was one of my dreams to attend a gig of such a huge magnitude. Hence, it delivered a great deal of disappointment. Sigh.

Along this road of life, I met a lot of new people. A lot of acquaintances turned into best of friends. A/C room might get a special mention (:P). Met some really irritating selfish kind of people as well. The kind of people whose mere sight prompts you to give them one tight slap. But, can’t, for the sake of maintaining the social protocol. Then there were some a&*#%es who, per se were 20 year old but behaved like an immature 5 year old child! They did anything without realizing where the lines are drawn or when they should start acting their age.  And, those crybabies did not realize that their actions could have an impact on other people as well. If only they would have had the brains to think. Just a little. And, I sincerely hope that they really suffer all the consequences. And they remain as miserable as they have made others. Call me a sadist, but that is called justice and fairness of nature.

And, as the year came to an end, I realized again the horror of giving exams. Sigh.

This year was also an adventurous one at the family level with my sister getting engaged and all the preparations taking place at a hectic pace for her wedding. So much shopping and responsibilities were a new for me and I enjoyed all the functions and hope that I enjoy the wedding functions as much as I enjoyed the earlier functions and give my sister my best wishes for the future as she encounters this great milestone in her journey of life.

My best wishes to each and every one of you! May you and your family have an awesome new year ahead and have the joy and fun of your lives.